Day 4: Doorways
I admit, I did not take this photograph today. I took it on October 24th, 2009 when I was visiting friends and family in the town that I grew up in: Front Royal, Virginia. I took it because I have some of the most wonderful memories in this house… so many years of happiness and love… and now I do everything I can to hold on to the memories that were created here, and to the memory of the woman who lived behind this door - my grandmother, Sugar.
I share this with the world because my father called this evening to tell me that she is very close to the end of her life. I am afraid now that I will not get to see her again before she goes – though a part of me is thankful to not have to witness her dying so that I can continue to remember her smiling in my mind, it is still so painful to be away from her and my family right now.
But I hold on her to her life and everything she taught me with all my heart. She carefully and lovingly molded me into who I am. Without her neverending, never questioning, whole hearted loving support, I would not be where I am today. She taught me strength, patience, compassion, independence and how to love. She taught me everything she knew, gave me shelter when I needed it, protected me, spoiled me rotten, inspired me and no matter what, she always allowed me to be ME.
Whenever I am asked the question of who do I consider to be my hero, I always say her name.
Sugar, I send all my love to you and though you are now walking through a different door, one that cannot follow you through, you’ll always be with me in my heart. Should I not get to see you again in this life, I know we’ll be together in the next, and I look forward to that day more than anyone can know.
|Camera:||Canon EOS 50D|
|Exposure:||0.01 sec (1/100)|
|Focal Length:||38 mm|
Manual: Page 84, Selecting the AF Mode
Images: Family photos
Addendum: Audrey Ellen Munch (Jett) Simpson, my beloved Sugar, died peacefully this morning around 2:30am.
Sugar, I miss and love you so much. Tell Sam I love him.